Today is Den'ja's first birthday. I was flooded with emotions today as I thought about what we were doing one year ago. Since our stubborn son was alrieady eight days late I was going to be induced. Joe called up to the hospital at 6 AM on the dot (the earliest we were allowed to call). He was so anxious and excited. It was adorable. I layed in bed, terrified. It's funny as I think about it now. I really had nothing at all to be afraid of. Even though I spent hours pushing and ended up needing a c-section none of it was as bad as I had imagined. It's funny how we can work ourselves up to fear things we don't really understand. Today I was first sad. I cannot believe how fast this year has gone by. It's like I blinked and my baby is not a baby anymore. I'm certain that the next years of his life will go by just as quickly and I suppose I am mourning that a little. Then I was proud. Den'ja impresses me each day with the things he learns and does. It's amazing that such a little body can bring such joy and love into our lives. I could talk about him for hours and wouldn't run out of things to brag about. Lastly, I was overjoyed. Sometimes when I sit and watch Den'ja and his daddy playing, laughing, and having fun I have a silly grin spread across my face. I think of how I am so lucky. This is what I've been waiting for my whole life. Motherhood is undescribable. I could try to explain it, but would never do it justice. My heart soars to think of what a wonderful opportunity I am allowed. I guess I'll just say that being a mom rocks and I would highly reccomend it!
We are celebrating Den'ja's birthday after Sunday dinner so check back for an insanely cute cake on the face pic. I won't dissapoint!
Time is a thief and a gift
4 years ago
2 comments:
Your blog is adorable, Jessica! I hope all is well in your neck of the woods. I use my blog as my journal and it works great!
holy cow, he is already one!!! didn't it seem like you just told me you were pregnant. Did he get his own cake??
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